A feeling
It cant be described with words
yet if felt, you are sure there
must be words to describe
it.
Yet when you reach for them,
they are no longer within your grasp.
The feeling of being stung
By a gigantic wasp .
Eating away at your soul
Only to find noone else really cares.
You cry inside, as they whistle and
hum to the beat of some unknown drum.
Why cant I hear this music that is so
Happy ?
Maybe it isnt in my realm??????
Maybe I just hoped it was.........
CLM 6-23-03
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Empty words
I was always told, to get the kind of
love you wanted,
You must give it as well.
But what about when you give it,
and it isnt returned?
When you feel like the one
person in this world you love more than
anything,
Really could care less?
It hurts like hell, I must
confess.
CLM 6-23-03
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The Change
I knew there was a change in you
I knew it wasn't all in my head.
I knew the cold shoulder was real
I didnt know why, but now I do.
I feel this change happening in you,
And have to wonder what to do.
Do I walk away knowing I did all I could?
hoping you'd want me back, but not knowing if you would.
It all feels very unsafe for me and my heart
I truly thought we'd never be apart.
I feel you are the man with whom I want to spend my life,
But somehow I know there will never
be the day, you call me your wife.
And with feelings like this, maybe that is what's best,
All I know is my love for you is being
put to the test.
My heart is full of confusion and pain,
and I'm pretty sure it's all in vain.
All I've ever wanted is my love returned,
not to get my heart this badly burned.
CLM 10-24-03
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Without Words
Things can be said and sometimes words arent needed
sometimes its a message that should be
well heeded.
The cold touch, the non existent touch,it all says something
and just because no words are said
we think we can ignore it .
Some things can be ignored, others eat away at your mind
and leave you feeling like theres something
your longing to find.
Maybe there is something your longing to find
and when you do, is it really what you had in mind?
When you think you have found the very best thing for you
ask yourself more than once, can this
really be true.
In love think always with you head, not with your heart
love can do many things to a person, then
leave you like a speeding dart.
And before you even know whats happened, things have changed forever
And theres nothing you can do to get it back, without words ..............
CLM 8-14-03
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Confused
There are things always unsaid that shouldnt be
And if we always leave it then what are we?
Are we those people who live life never stopping
to look,
the ones who picked all the
flowers without ever knowing
what we took.
There arent any questions unanswered now, I know my place
But then I stop to think, Cant he see
this look upon my face?
He can see it very well and chooses to ignore
Now its me who sits hurt....forever more.
Pick yourself up ,Dust your self off and say
Tomorrow is another day,the sun will shine my way.
CLM 8-13-03
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Love's Lesson
When you try too hard for something you really adore,
Are you giving away yourself and more?
If you begin to feel like your the only one there,
you have to ask yourself, does he really care?
Do I matter? Does anything matter? Is it worth fighting for?
All of these questions leave me searching
for something more.
Searching for what, I dont have a clue,
it used to be me searching for someone just like you.
Now, all I feel is very much alone, even though you are here,
living life competing for your affection
leaves me feeling nothing but fear.
How can someone say I love you, then shatter your heart,
like you are nothing more than someone
who is very un-smart.
I used to believe true love could exist if you gave your all,
and now it feels as if my all is
nothing and I'm about to fall.
Well I guess this is love's lesson to me,
next time fool, keep your heart free.
CLM 9-30-03
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